So What! Who Cares?

No Help today, so it is on the Streets for us Tomorrow! Who Cares though Right! We must Deserve it! Hey! It Aint You though, Right? So Who Cares?! No Money! No Gas! No Food! No where to go! But Who Cares! Its Not Your Problem!

We must be BAD People to get in this situation! We are Getting What we Deserve! We must do Drugs or Drink Alcohol or Steal from Others! We must Not want to work! Who Cares?!

Nightmares!

Many of you do not know just How Scary it is knowing that you could be on the Streets Tomorrow! It is a Neverending Nightmare that won't go away! Biting Fingernails, Stressing out, pacing back and forth. That feeling of Dread and Despair and Fear Overwhelms you! 

We have the luxury of having a bad running car, but running none the less for now, to sleep in and we are Thankful for that. What is scary, is that it gets colder at night now and Winter is coming and We dont even have coats, but we do have a Blanket and a couple of throws and plenty of pillows that we salvaged from our house that we lost. No more money for food. No gas in the car. Not knowing where to go for a shower or waking up every morning and having to go to a public bathroom somewhere to brush our teeth and freshen up. No more Coffee or Breakfast. No phone or way to communicate with anyone! Yes! This is Scary and Yes! This is REAL! And Yes! This Will Happen to us Starting TOMORROW! 

Others are and Have been going through this Right NOW! PLEASE HELP! If not us, Will you Please Help atleast One Person, Couple or Family in your area that is Homeless! PLEASE! You Can Make a World of Difference to them! Please Look up your Local Homeless Projects and Programs in your Area and Donate, Volunteer, or just Find a Homeless Person and Give them a Warm Meal or Blankets, Coats, Food or whatever! SOMETHING! JUST DO SOMETHING PLEASE!

The UnDeserving!

Now this post excludes the very few,(Few as in a handful of folks, compared to the Tens of Thousands out there,) who have Shown Compassion, has helped us, and Prayed for us!

I am trying to figure out Why it is, that so Many feel that when one is in need, that they do not deserve it, because they did not earn it, or did not work as hard as you, or they are to blame for their own situation, or they have a Sense of entitlement, so therefore You will not Help them! I know! Get a Job! or Earn it like I Did! What if that Person is Really Trying to? Like I said in an earlier post, some have More Obstacles to Overcome then Others, Like car Problems and Repairs and lack of money to fix the car, or Having no form of Transportation at all!

I understand that we are Strangers to most of you. I also understand that many out there take advantage of others. I also understand that many abuse drugs, alcohol, or just the money that may be given to them. I do understand that!

Why is it that around Christmas time only, once a Year, Giving and Helping the needy becomes the FAD? You donate toys or clothes or Money to Christmas Charities, Sponser a Family, Volunteer for the local Thanksgiving or Christmas "Feed The Homeless" Meal, but when the Holidays Pass, Oh! I did my Part for the needy! And then it is Gone! That PUSH to Help is Done for a Whole Entire Year! I know that Many Volunteer and Help All year Round and I Commend you for that! I would also, if I was able, and I do some when I can and I will do more when I get to the point where we have the extra money to do it! But My Point is, Although I know that This is YOUR Money that YOU Worked Hard for, which I Respect, If you have extra, Why not Help others? I know that this is not a Popular Topic, but if you try it, You Just may be Blessed so much More then what you Give and in Many ways. Not just Financially, but it does something inside of you that you can Never Trade! Knowing that you Did an Act of Kindness for someone and Putting Joy in that persons Heart, in Return puts Joy in Your Own!

I Do Love Helping Others and Have in the past and some now in different ways. I Love it! I Cannot Wait until that day comes when I can Give Back to so many who need it! I have Always had a Giving Heart and I have always tried to see the Good in Everyone! Why Can't You? Especially those of you who have so much money that you do not know what to do with it! I Know! Change Someones Life for the Better! That is what I would Do!

Random Acts of Kindness!

The last few days was yet another Trial, to say the least. No food but a few canned goods and we were Thankful for that, but I still developed a horrible headache that would not go away! I became so sick by yesterday evening as my headache slowly transformed into a migrane and the nausea was upon me. I posted something about it on facebook about hunger pains and a terrible headache and was going to take a nap, and Once Again, Some Angels appeared and sent us a little so we could Eat!
It is because of "These Angels" that we have survived this far! It has been over two Months since we were evicted and we have only slept in the car Once since we have been "Homeless" and that was mainly from these Angels that were sent to us! We had paid a couple of weeks ourselves and The Jeremiah Tree helped us for a few days also, Whom are also Angels, but most of this was from my Wonderful Friends from Facebook! 
I am So Truly Blessed to have them in our lives! We had Nobody that Cared other then a Dear friend that I grew up with and a Good Friend of my Husbands, who, in spite of him being in just about as bad shape as we were, still helped move things into my friends garage, which they allowed us to keep our important belongings that we saved before we had to be out of the house, and that was it! We had No Help to move anything out of the house, except for Our things. and we could not afford storage or a UHaul. 
Although my husband got a job soon after we were evicted, The Car problems started. First the Brakes went out and we had no money to fix them, then another Angel helped us with the brakes, but it took awhile to finally find someone to fix them, so my husband had to let his job go. We finally did, and got that taken care of, so my husband called his job and told them that he had the car fixed and asked for another chance, and they hired him back after a few days. Then the Car started shaking and getting hot. We did not want to warp the heads. We had to keep water in it and still do, Once again, he had no choice but to let his job go again. His job is about 10 miles away in the next town over and could not drive it that far with it overheating and leaking water. A few people finally looked at it, including a mechanic shop, and said it was the water pump. but turned out, his friend made arrangements for us to take the car to his friends house, who works on cars all of the time, and we found out that there is a leak in the radiator. So Car problems have been involved alot through this time, and this has been why my husband has had a hard time getting and keeping a job. Obstacles in our path. 
During this entire time, we have encountered Random Acts of Kindness that has helped us with gas, to get to local appointments and pantries and such, with food so we have not gone hungry much. With Prayers, Encoragement and Love that we so Deeply needed! This has helped us through so far and We are So Grateful for everyone who helped us! 
We are still in bad shape and we Was so hoping to be caught up by now, but due to these Obstacles and a few bills that Has to be paid, a car Title loan, and court fines, plus car issues, It has been Very Difficult to Get Back on our feet! 
Our first goal is to be at a point where we can pay a whole month here at the motel at once. It ends up being Cheaper then daily or weekly but we have not been able to do that yet. Once we get this car fixed and my husband gets a job again, we can pay off these other bills and work out Bi-Weekly Payments to the motel. We racked up high Utility Bills when my husband lost his job at the house, so the Motel life is our only option at this time, since we pay no utilities here.
Tomorrow is Our Last day here! We will be living in Our Car! This is yet Another reason why we Need to keep the car running, so that atleast we wont be, "Literally" on the streets! Once the car goes, so does our shelter!

Leave an IMPRESSION!

Think about what The Homeless does not have! The security of having a safe place to sleep at night. Not knowing where you may be from day to day. Not knowing when or where your next Meal will be. Not having clean clothes or enough clothes. Not always having a Coat or Blankets to keep warm. Not having any Friends or Family to talk to. 

Now think about how you would feel not having a Car. Not having a phone. Not having a computer. Not able to go out to eat or go to the movies, or not having a television or Cable. Not having someone to invite you to Parties or Cookouts. Not Having Any form of Outside Communication! Not having Jewelry or a Watch to keep time. Not having any Money at all. 

Just Think about How You would Feel and be Honest within yourselves. "That Would Never Happen to Me!" So you say! I Have Rich Relatives to Fall back on! I Am Financially Secure for the Rest of My Life! I Would NEVER Allow Myself to become Homeless! 

We All may not be born into the same upbringing or support system or with money or with a Well adjusted Family way or taught the same things about Morals, or How important it is to keep up your Credit Scores, or How Impotant it is to always work and save up for your Future and How to Properly Plan for your future and How Important it is to go to College!

Not Everyone was Blessed with being Born into a Great Life with a Positive Support System around Them! Is that their Fault? True that Anyone Can succeed and make a Better Life if they Really Put their all into it. But the Fact is, is that there are many more obstacles for some to overcome then others and that makes it much more complicated for those who have fell into a hole and Many Refuse to Acknowledge that! This is why we NEED to Give Hope to the "so called Hopeless" that many of you want to Label! They need our Love, Support and Kindness and ENCOURAGEMENT to get them back on their feet again! Not Hate, Bullying, Stereotyping, Judgement, Discouragement, Disappointment and Anger! Many of them have had enough of that growing up as it is, and that is why many of them are in this situation in the first place! UNDO what has been Done to them! Because the Fact is, in the end, We Cant take Anything with us, But can Leave an Everlasting Impression!

No Food Once again!

Well, we went to the Salvation Army this morning to see if we could get a food voucher, but they was all out! They usually have you call in and you only have a limited time to do it in the morning and it is usually busy and if you do finally get through, we usually get a recoding that says that they are out of vouchers and try again next week! He said that they were out and try again Monday so that was a big disappointment. We are allowed to get Hot foods from the Deli at the store that they use for those vouchers and that sounded so good! Dont get me wrong, We are grateful for whatever we can get, but these pantries and very few churches that do help with food, does not always cater to microwaves and not having cooking facilities, so it can be tricky at times. We are Very Fortunate to be in a motel with a small Refridgerator and a microwave. That is much more then many Homeless have, but then again, we will be on the streets after Friday too if that is Gods Plan. 

Something To Think About!

I have been testing the waters all day, just to see if I would get any kind of Response, and although we Truly Need the Help, Not One person helped or messaged me or showed any concern! This is my Whole Point on How others Conceive the Homeless and we all need to Change Our Perception of things! We have been brought up in a Society that is All about Possessions, Looks, Fashion and anyone with Anything less then that, is not worth the time! We have also been desensitized through the past years from all of the violence and gore and Evil and Vanity in the World on television, Internet, Video Games and the Care and Compassion is slowly slipping away from the Human race! 

No Coats Yet!

Well we went to the local Free Clothing Closet and found a few things that we needed, but No Coats. It is not too cold yet, But here in Ohio, Winter is not far off! The Clothing Closet is Open Every Tuesday so maybe we will find some next week. My Husband should be working before then but will be a couple more weeks before he will get paid. It is scary not knowing if we will be living in our car after Friday and not knowing where our next hot meal will be coming from. This is Not a Picnic by Far but we will be Trusting in God that he will send the right people to help us and our son. The Stress is so Unbearable sometimes and it is Really starting to effect my Health and Probably my husbands as well. We have a little more paperwork to turn in to the local Human Services Dept. to see if we qualify for help until My husband is back to work. We are Truly Thankful for what we do have because so many have far less then us and I Pray for those who will be hungry and out in the Cold this Winter and even Now! I Hope that you will find it in your Hearts to Help Your Local Homeless! They Really Need You! 

YES! We Need HELP!

Yes! We do Need Help and I am not going to let my pride get in the way of that, Not when we need things like food to survive, a radiator for our car and gas, and a roof over our heads, especially with the cold weather coming, but We do want to get back on our feet again! Believe me! We dont like this any more then You do! I am sharing my Side post because I updated another way that you could possibly help us, a local Homeless project and you could also get some of your Early Christmas shopping done, all at the same time! I hope that you understand that We are Not Bad People! We Do Not do Drugs or Party! We go to Church and We Love God! We are by far, Not Perfect, but we are Good and Honest People who Have been going through a series of unplanned, unexpected and unfortunate events! And My Husband Is Working on getting his last job back! He lost it twice now because of car problems! Please Consider Helping if you Can! We will get out of this soon, but we just need some support from those who Truly Care and if it had not been for those Caring Folks from Facebook,Church and The Jeremiah Tree, we would Not have made it this far!  God Bless you!

I Never thought it would happen to us, but it did! Lost Job and Income. Getting way behind on bills. Getting Utilities shut off one by one. And Finally the Dreaded Eviction Notice. Life through the Eyes of what we have, and still are facing, day by day.

We just need to get back on our feet, like many Homeless folks do, so if you have a little to donate, We would be Truly Grateful to you! My Paypal address is shellyxen@gmail.com Also, if you want to help in another way, I will Donate 10% off All of my sales to The Jeremiah Tree! If anyone Orders any Candles or Tarts from me from my Jewelry in Candles website, I will personally donate 10% of all earnings to them! They will make Awesome Gifts to give for the Holidays or any Occasion! Hidden Jewelry inside Every Candle or Tart thats ordered! My Website is Shellyscents-jewelryincandles! Thank you and God Bless you for your support and Compassion!

Wherever the Road Leads!

I May be offline for awhile. I had this laptop as a loaner, but may lose it tomorrow. I will do my Best to update you all as soon as I can! In the meantime, I hope you All will get involved with my Google+ page for the Homeless and Get Involved in Your Community! Even if you could just Donate Blankets, Coats, Food, Clothing or even Money to the Homeless Programs in your area, It will make a Huge Difference in Someones Life! Please Save this Blog and I will stay in Touch when I can! We are Not sure where we will be after this Friday so wherever the road leads us, I will find a way Back! God Bless You All! :)

Giving to People Who Give!

From a Friend on Facebook Today!

I'm in tears. This was awesome. More people need to do this daily. Shelly Hargis, add this to your blog. This shows there are people out there that care about helping the homeless. Plus it shows how strong the ignorance is towards those that are homeless and asking for help. Like the guy who just assumed this 'homeless looking guy' needs to just get a job. Why didn't this man stop and ask what his skill set was and offer him a job at his place of business? maybe the homeless man has a silent/invisible disability that forbids him from gainful employment? So many other questions I could list. Too many people 'judge by the book cover'. I likely did this from time to time as well and hate myself for doing this and try to not do this. Yet, in this busy hustle bustling world today it's hard to stop and just put yourself into their position if you have never been there yourself so that you could better understand the possible reasons that put them there. Bad enough that I know I will likely experience being homeless one more time(I've had a few short experiences of being homeless and living in group shelters.). I want to move to Florida. Sure, I have family and a few friends there, but I don't want to impose upon them my presence in their home for long period of time if they were to offer a couch to crash on. Perhaps they won't, therefore, I would need a shelter. I will have to find a storage rental place for my uhaul belongings I take with me and then sleep in shelters till I can secure housing. My FBF Shelly is homeless and has swallowed her pride and is creating homeless awareness online, here at facebook. She doesn't have a supportive family unit. They have turned their back on her. (Maybe not all of them, but most). This happens because of the peoples ignorance about the homeless. This happens because they are not compassionate caring individuals. Or they have this idealism that helping the homeless person only keeps them homeless and lazy? Or perhaps they feel that their relative is 'taking advantage of their own generosity? We never know what reasons, regardless of how disturbingly idiotic they may be, cause relatives to say NO or Yes to a homeless relative. I have found out over these last few years that it is the NON -Relatives that are more supportive towards a homeless friend than is a relative towards a relative. This is why I have decided that I will not try to impose on my relatives or floridian 'friends' the burden of bunking me when I ever decide to make a move south. For all I know. I may be lucky and secure housing before I even spend a permanent day 1 in Florida.

A New Day!

We have alot to get done today. Now that we have the car in better running shape, my husband is trying to get his old job back. He is now waiting to hear back from his old manager. We are Praying that she will give him another chance. We are almost out of food again and gas, but atleast we are paid up at the Motel until Friday. I have some paperwork to turn in at the local Human Services Department and then I am going to try to go to the Jeremiah Tree to Volunteer some. Our tire is bald in the front passenger side, so hoping it will hold out a little longer also. Just Wingin it as long as we can! We have Hope in God that All things will come together and they will! We are just Very Thankful for this New Day! :)

YOU have a Purpose!

My husband and I attended church today, and they are teaching right now, about "What is Our Purpose". It is funny in a way because just two weeks ago, when we attended church and, as I mentioned in an earlier post about The Jeremiah Tree, how a Lady named Marlene was talking about the project and what they hope to do for the Homeless, has Inspired me and right then and there, I felt that I had found my Purpose. Well, maybe that is a small part of "My Purpose", but it is So Much Bigger then that and not just for me, but for Everyone!
God has a Purpose for Each of us and as we travel through our Journeys here on earth, As long as we grow closer to God, we will learn more and more about Our Purpose because God Already Created Each one of us and Already knows what our purpose is. We just have to seek him out and Our Purpose will be revealed little by little. We are All a Part of Gods Greater Scheme of things, and each and every one of us has a part in it.No one was here by Accident! No one is Useless! There are accidental Pregnancies, or illlegitimate Parents, But YOU are No Accident or Illegitimate! That goes for Everyone INCLUDING the Homeless, Helpless, and Hopeless! You have a Purpose! You are Just as Worthy as Everyone Else! :)

A New Google+ Community!

I have been working Real hard on my New Google+ Community and I hope you all find it in your hearts to join and share your local Resources for the Homeless! I know that their are Many Humanitarians who care about the Homeless! Please Join and Help! Thank you so much! :)

  HOMELESS AMERICA!

HEY YOU?! The Judgemental, Stereotyping, Hateful and Non Compassionate!

INSTEAD of Just Jumping to Conclusions and JUDGING, Like Most people do about Homelessness, Actually Read this whole Blog and other TRUE Stories and SEE WHY!
I decided to write about OUR experience specifically because of people like You, who Need to read and Educate yourself to the Fact that there are MANY Decent People and Families that are Homeless now a days that are NOT always due to the Stereotypical Reasons that People Like you seem to LABEL as Homeless! JUDGE FIRST then LEARN FACTS LATER! DO YOU BELIEVE that we WANT to be HOMELESS? DO YOU THINK that most People that are HOMELESS WANTED that LIFE? WHAT about the Innocent Children? Do we just Ignore them also? Their is ALWAYS a Story behind a Homeless person, couple or Family! If the WORLD would Start Seeing that, Then maybe More People would CARE instead of HATE the HOMELESS and Look at them Through LOVING EYES instead of Judgemental and Eyes of DISGUST! It Baffles my Mind to see just hoe hateful people are when it comes to the Homeless! Just because someone Loses their job or Home. Does that mean that they must SUFFER for the Rest of their Lives or be CONDEMNED for Eternity? When People Get into a HOLE, They sometimes have No Way of Catching up and Getting back out of that Hole! Not Everyone has a Rich Relative or Friend who will help them get back on their feet! Not Everyone has Credit Cards or a Bank Account to fall back on! Does THAT Make them HORRIBLE? Many who become Homeless, Become Helpless because they have No Way to get back Up on their Feet and they lose HOPE! If You Dislike the Homeless so much. then Instead of Sitting Back and Condeming them. Help Someone get back on their feet! Once Many of us are given the opportunity to Get Back Up. Many of us will STAY UP! YES I KNOW! HANDOUTS! OH MY GOD! ITS HORRIBLE! GOD FORBID that We Do Not Deserve a Helping Hand! We Just may Go and Buy some DRUGS or ALCOHOL with it! And yes. Some do. But their are other Ways to Help the Homeless. Give them Jobs and supply a way for them to get back and forth to that job. Or Take some time to get to know one or more of us and then work with them to get them the help that they need without giving them Cash. Volunteer at your local Homeless project or Donate directly to help provide more food, clothing and Housing for the Homeless and help implement programs that will help the homeless get jobs and the education and the transportation that they need to get back on their feet again! We are ALL Living, Breathing Human Beings who deserve a Second Chance to Make it Right and to Have a Life again! Please Remember that!

The Jeremiah Tree!

I have not been able to log on ever since I got back from The Jeremiah Tree today. I am barely on now. I am having computer/WiFi issues. I had a Busy, but Wonderful day today helping out at the Jeremiah Tree! We sorted clothes and I cleaned the bathroom and dusted and then went with a few of the volunteers to pick up a TON of donated clothes and shoes and hangers for a yard sale that they are going to have at the end of the month. I am going back tomorrow if they are still working tomorrow and helping more. I Love being there and the People are Wonderful. I met a few Awesome folks today who was there for help and their stories touched my heart. I met a man who has two children and a girlfriend and they are homeless and his story touched my heart so much, after he left, I broke down and cried. I want to help SO BADLY and I hope and Pray to see more and more people donate their time, clothing and money to these programs. These people work so hard and try to help as many people as they can, but there is not enough funding to go around and Programs like these NEED US to Help. ANYONE in the XENIA, Ohio and surrounding areas, if you want to help donate, food, clothing or Money to a GREAT Cause, I encourage you to consider The Jeremiah Tree! Donate to Your Local Homeless Project or Programs! Or even Volunteer! They can always use the help. I went to Bible Study tonight and really enjoyed that also. This was a Great Day to really help, even if it was just a little bit, I still felt productive and I felt more connected to others! Not so Alone Anymore! :)

  THE JEREMIAH TREE!   

The "MISS" List!

I think about it all of the time! I guess we all do, but being Homeless, I guess "the Miss" lists may vary in some ways, they are still similar in general.
Things that are on my "Miss List" are: walking through the front door of our home, curling up on our couch and watching television on the big screen t.v., hearing my grandsons running around playing or even arguing with each other, my kitchen, my oven, Hot, home cooked meals, the fire place, the basement, the garage, the trees in our yard, the park around the corner, the community center and kids club, the kids, the neighbors, the sounds of the soccer games nearby, looking out of our picture window, stepping outside on the front porch to check the mail, doing our own laundry in the basement, my car in the driveway, the driveway. Just somewhere to call Home!

Laundry Day!

Yesterday was a Great day, other then going without food most of the day. Last night, A few Wonderful Friends sent us some money to get something to eat, so we got some food and it was so good after going all day without. We watched a little t.v., then headed to bed.
I woke up feeling refreshed, but knew we had to wash some clothes. Since we received those funds last night, we can now do some Laundry! It is embarrassing to admit, but we haven't had clean clothes for a few days now. It will be so nice to get them washed finally!
We used to take things like food and clean clothes, for granted, But Not anymore!
Our son has an appointment at 2pm, and after that, Off to the Laundrymat!

Today was a Great Day!

My husband and I decided to go to church this morning at a small church here in town where they have rented a small building in a small shopping center and made their own worship center for those who want to gather together and worship. We had received help from them a few weeks ago with some food, and they invited us to go to their service and we planned on going last Sunday but missed it due to our cell phone dying the day before, and not having an alarm to wake up to, so we overslept. Well Thank God we went today, because, not only did we get a Blessing from the message, but I also found my Calling! This small group of people happen to be at the Heart of a Homeless Project here in town called The Jeremiah Tree! We spoke after the service and I may get to be involved in helping out in this program after I had mentioned to them about this Blog and having some Computer skills. I am Truly excited and cannot wait to meet with them Tuesday. They also paid us through Friday at this motel that we are staying in, so We were Blessed in many ways today! God is So Great! I hope to Inspire Others to get involved with your local Homeless projects, whether it is to volunteer your time, or to Donate funds, or to just Help Spread Awareness and encourage others to do the same! YOU Can make a World of Difference in Someone's Life! <3

Countdown begins Again!

We are paid up until Sunday Morning at 11am, Sept., 7th, 2014, then We do not know where we will be. This is a Constant Worry and the Stress can be Overwhelming at times! Imagine not knowing where you will be Tomorrow? How you are going to get fed? How you are going to get your clothes washed? This is REALLY Happening to us, and to Many People out there Right Now! If you can get involved in helping your local Homeless shelters or Sharing information with your friends about Homelessness in America, You can make a World of difference, even if it was just for one person, couple or Family! Please Help!

Another Day Gone!

Well, It has been yet another day that we did not get our car fixed. This is getting Frustrating and stressing us out. The person that was supposed to work on it, does not have his tools and we have to wait until he gets them, whenever. I Wish that we knew someone who was cheap and reliable, but those two things usually don't go together. If we do not get the car fixed by Monday, my husband will surely lose his job if things do not work out. We bought the parts and sacrificed paying for another week at the motel and still it is not getting done. I know that God has a Plan, but We are only human and get frustrated too. Just Freaking Frustrated!

Putting it ALL out there!

When my Dear Friend started the fundraiser on Facebook, I soon after, decided that I would keep everyone updated on what was going on in our lives. We had so many who were truly concerned and was praying for us and inquiring about us, that I figured, I might as well Put it all out there. Before I started sharing this journey, I thought long and hard about it. I knew that I would have to swallow my pride and I also knew that many would lose what little respect for me that they may have had. I also knew that I would lose some friends in the process and also, many of our "Nosey" Relatives would also be offended, But I weighed the options and figured that those who Truly Cared about us would stay by our side and would continue the Prayers. Well, Most of them Did stay by our side and has continued to support us, whether it was financially, spiritually or both and God showed me that it was Not Hopeless and that there are Truly Wonderful and Caring Angels in a World that can be very Heartless and without compassion. They Gave us the Hope and the Will to keep on and to Never give up and to Always Trust in God! With Gods help, Our Facebook Friends Truly saved our lives!

We are Not out of the woods. My Husband has missed work since last Friday since the water pump went out, but with his small paycheck that he gets tomorrow, we are going to fix the car and get some clothes washed at the laundrymat. We had planned on paying for a week at the motel, but Our car has to be the first Priority right now so that my husband can continue to work. We had spent only one night in the car so far, but it is looking like we may be staying in the car after Sunday morning, until his next paycheck on the 19th, but atleast we will have a car to stay in.

Cars Suck!

If it were not for cars, many people could not get back and forth to work, but you need a job to get a car, and need a car to get a job, etc........! Cars are a Blessing when they Run Good and when you can afford to keep them up, but when they brak down, and you don't have enough to fix them, it can cost you your job and that leads to losing your home sometimes. Everyone knows that gas and maintaining a vehicle, can be very expensive, but not everyone can afford to keep up their vehicle. Yes, there is Bikes and Bussing in many cities, but not everywhere and walking or even riding a bike 20 miles round trip every day to your job is pretty difficult and not very realistic. Yes, some do it, but not everyone can run a Marathon either. Some people have back, leg and knee issues that can prevent that option from being a possibility.

Countdown to Reality!

We were served a Court Order eviction around the beginning of June, of this year, 2014. Our Court date was for July 1st, 2014 and we knew that they would most likely only give us a few days to leave the premises after that. We decided to have a Yard Sale to try to sell as much as we could, so that we would not have to leave anything behind. I had mentioned to a Friend on Facebook what we were going through and she decided to start a Fundraiser on facebook to try to save our home. She invited over 1000 people, but only a handful joined, but they did help us out as much as they could. It helped with gas, food and we were able to pay for the yard sale signs, but did not have enough to put an ad in the paper. We worked hard that whole weekend, but only sold a few items. We had no way to store or haul off anything, other then one truckfull of furniture and items that we donated to a friend for them to sell in their own garage sale. They did let us store some things in their garage, but everything else stayed behind. We tried to give things away, and managed to get rid of a few items, but did not have much luck there either.

The last week we were there, My daughter received a Frantic Phone call from her boyfriend, Joey. He was in Hysterics. He had just found his Mom dead in his apartment. She had some health problems with her heart. We rushed to the next town, where he lived, Praying that we would not run out of gas, and we made it. He was so upset, understandibly. My daughter decided to move in with Joey and help him with everything through this time. So she and our grandsons started staying there with Joey.

Our electric got shut off. We had a few candles and my friend let us borrow a battery powered lamp, so that helped with light. It was hot and muggy and at times, we had no food. It was miserable. We were still in shock that this was Really Happening. We were scared, not knowing where we would stay. We contacted Every shelter and Program that we could think of, but since we had no small children, no one would take us in.

During the past Year and a half, Our Son had been dealing with emotional issues. Since he was little, he had always struggled with Learning challenges and Depression, but through the years, he developed social anxiety, and panic disorders and struggled daily with them. He was close to his Grandparents and they were Loving and Good, Christian People who loved their Grandchildren very much. My son started reading the Bible and started going to their church where his grandparents had been members for years. After the loss of both of his Grandparents, especially after we were staying with his Grandmother and taking care of her, when she passed away, My son became worse. He started believing that he was getting Symptoms of MS. He also started believing that he was not doing what God wanted him to do, and that God was telling him that he was worthless and that he was going to kill him and torment him because he was not obeying God. He started talking to (God) and belived that God was constantly tormenting him. He would Cry all of the time and Talk to himself. He would be scared at times, Frustrated and Angry at God. We were all dealing with this Every Day, All Day and into the early morning hours until he would finally fall asleep from exhaustion, the same time that we were going through this eviction. It was Heartbreaking to watch our son suffering like this. We did not know how to help him. How do you stop "God" from tormenting someone!? It was Truly Torment for all of us.

Our son became so Depressed that he finally broke down. He started flipping out and my husband was frustrated and started yelling at him to calm down. Our son got so upset, that he hauled off and hit my husband in the side of his head. We were in shock that he did that. He was completely losing it. That is not like him to do that. He has had anger issues in the past and had been known to lose it like that before, but had not done that in years. He started going to church and did a complete turn around for awhile up until All of this started when his grandparents passed. He always had a conscience and a good heart. Both of our children do. We had no choice but to call the police. They were here before. We had called them a few weeks before when Shane was havine a serious "Episode" and we knew that he desperately needed some mental health help. We explained to the police what has been going on with Shane and that we wanted them to hospitalise him so he could get evaluated. We were hoping that they would do the works, like MRI's and similar tests like that, but they ended up just setting him up for counseling and to see his regular Psychiatrist. They kept him for 3 days and did nothing really. This time, although the police agreed that he did need some mental help, they pressed domestic violence charges on him and arrested our son. What he did was wrong and we do know that, and he did need to face some consequences for his actions, but the mental state that he was in, We was concerned about him being locked up in jail. If he could handle that mentally. We made sure that they would have someone come in and see him from where he sees his Psychologist. They did. He was locked up for about 3 weeks during the time we were moving out and staying in a motel. I Cried and Cried until there were almost no more tears left in me. We could not set up visitation with him. He was supposed to fill out the paperwork two days before the visitation so we could come see him, but he did not know that and has a hard time understanding all of that stuff. He was not used to how all of this worked and neither was we. I was finally able to talk to a deputy and explained to her that he probably does not know to fill out the paperwork and finally he did and after about a week, I was finally able to see my son. He was upset and wanted to come home, but all I could do was to tell him that we had to wait until the pre-trial in a couple more weeks.I let him know that we loved him very much and that he would be out soon. I was able to visit him a few more times during that time that he spent in jail, and finally he was released but not to come "Home". Only to a small Motel room with nothing much in it at all.

To back up a little, The day of court finally came. We were so nervous and scared. We did not know if the judge would give us a day or 10 days or what? The Judge was nice, but, of course had to make us leave the premises by law. He gave us a week and the landlords lawyer was Ok with that. They scheduled another court date for us to come back to settle on back rent owed and damages, if any, so we had to come back in about a month. We was relieved to get Court over, but knew we had to come back, so not much of a sigh of relief.

We hussled and bussled through every room and every drawer and every closet and shelf, cracks and crevices, to make sure that we packed only the sentimental and needed items to take with us. We made sure that we got everything for our son that we thought he would want to keep, since he was in jail at this time. My car was still sitting on the driveway, broke down and we had no one to help to haul the car anywhere and no money to fix it. We were still in need of gas and food, so we talked with the neighbors, and as much as we hated to do it, we agreed to sell them my car at junk price. $200.00 to move with and live on. In the meantime, I was keeping my Facebook Friends posted on our situation, and We took my sons SSI check that gets direct deposited every month on the 1st,  and paid on the car loan and a couple of bills that we had to pay, bought some food and needs and paid for a week at a Motel so that we could atleast have somewhere to shower and sleep and have electric for a liitle bit. We had no clue where we was going to go after the week was up.

I continued to keep my Facebook Friends updated on our situation. Time was almost up at the motel and God Bless my Friends, they came through for us! Someone paid for another week at the motel and for the next few weeks, our Friends kept us going at the motel! My husband got a part time job cleaning commercial Buildings during this time, but then our brakes went out, after just a few days, and we was not able to afford or find someone to fix them at first, so he had to let his job go. He put his applications in several places around the motel and here in town, but nothing happened. Then we were able to get the brakes fixed, thanks to friends Once again! As soon as we had the brakes fixed, my husband called his last job back and told them the brakes were fixed and asked if they would consider hiring him back, and two days later, they called him back in to work! We was so Excited and Relieved. He has been there for about a month now, but has had to miss a few days, once again, because the water pump went out in the car. We are now making arrangements to get that fixed on Friday, Sept. 5th, when my husband gets his paycheck. We was going to pay for a week at the motel, but we have no choice but to keep the car running so that My husband can keep his job. We are doing our best to get ahead, so that we can start saving up for a home again, but it seems that car issues and other bills keep getting in the way, We will continue to fight. If it were not For our Facebook Friends and our faith in God, we would not have made it this far. We had No One to help us. Our Families, either did not care, or were not able to help us and the same with our personal friends. God and Our facebook Friends have been a True Blessing and we are So Grateful to each and Every one of them! :)