We had such a Bad day the last few days, but Change is Coming!
I can feel it as much as I am breathing! Things are getting ready to change and I just know it! It may be Tough at the moment, but Something is in the Works for us and it is going to be So Good!
I have been working as hard as I can with what little that we have had, to get something going on the Internet, but nothing is really working well! I get a few Commissions here and there from JIC, but other then that, Nothing! But that is all about to Change!
I have been disappointed by many programs with many promises, but I can actually see people getting Cycled and Paid in the Group Constantly so I know that this is Real and I trust Josie completely!
I have found someone who Truly cares about Others who are struggling! Her whole purpose with her program is to help the Homeless and the Struggling, get back on their feet again!
I have chatted with her personally and I soon will be earning from this and what is so Wonderful about this, is that this Program is helping so many Philippines whose lives were Devastated by the Super Typhoon, Yolanda and Many, Many others as well!
The administrator of #WealthForPH or #WFP4Life, is dedicated to helping these Strong and wonderful People who has lost Everything! I Truly Admire and respect her!
Things are Changing for many right now as I am writing this, and I am on this list and we will be getting on Our feet again soon!
When this happens, I will be Paying it Forward to help others who are struggling! I have wanted to do this for so long, and it Will Happen Soon! :)
NOT a good start to the day! Everything that could go wrong, pretty much has! I am just Venting right now! I need to or I will Break Down again! I know Nobody Cares or will Read this anyways!
I am so tired of everything having to be so difficult! We still have not received Any assistance from Human Services! My husbands New Job won't start him until Next Saturday, so that threatens us from having to leave the motel now! We are HUNGRY! Have NO WAY to WASH our CLOTHES! NO GAS in the CAR! The Car itself, is getting ready to Break Down! I just want SOMETHING to GO RIGHT SOON!
Yes! I KNOW!! I am supposed to appreciate what we do have, which is almost NOTHING, and I do. but that does not make it any easier! I do know that God has seen us through so far, but I do need to Vent!
We are not on the streets YET and we woke up to another day, but this is SO HARD! I PRETEND EVERYTHING IS FINE, so Everyone is HAPPY that way! But it is not, so Sorry to Disappoint You All! I am SO SORRY to Ruin your Day!
I spoke earlier in my Blog about learning lessons from the hardships that we may experience! Well, Although I am still learning everyday and riding that "Emotional Rollercoaster" at times, I did experience a New Passion about "The Homeless" after we became Homeless!
We started attending a small local church in town and learned about a homeless program while we were there and contacted them for help, and after they helped pay for a couple of nights at the Motel for us, I decided to volunteer, only once so far, at this local Homeless Project called "The Jeremiah Tree". I was so happy to be a part of it and wanted to do more, but still, I wanted More people to get involved! This gave me the idea of wanting to get more online Awareness and, although I was not the first to do this, by far, I had to do something! I decided to Create an Online Community on Google+ to help Raise even More Awareness of this Homeless Problem that we do have in America!
I was so tired of being "The Victim" all of the time, and although I still get down and we do need help at times, I wanted to do something Positive with Our situation! I also decided, after several people encouraged me to write about our story, to start this Blog. It helps to be able to express my feelings and tell about what our experiences are as we are living them day to day.
I am Very passionate about this, but found out that Many are not! Homelessness is Not what people want to hear about! It is something that many do not care about! Some don't even acknowledge that it exists or refuses to see it! People are More passionate about Saving the Animals, Trees or the Enviornment then they are about Saving Human Beings and this is so Sad! People have their Priorities all screwed up! I care about all of those issues, But a Human Being should be First on the list! Atleast that is the way I see it and Believe Me! If you was to suddenly become Homeless, and it can happen to you too, You would change your views on these things! I Promise You that!
I do hope to Create Something Positive out of this Situation that we are in now, and I hope to use our Negative Experiences as a tool for Something Lasting and Positive!
Please Visit My Google+ Community and add your Local Homeless Resources!
Homeless America! Share your Story and Resources!
I woke up a little late today, since I stayed up so late last night, feeling restless and hungry. It was a slow start to the morning, but finally got a message from a friend of my husbands, saying that he would be over. he showed up around 2 or so, in the afternoon, and brought us all a bottle of pop, which was so nice of him! He also loaned my husband a little money, so that we could get something to eat!
We was so appreciative and we were so hungry! lol. It was such a nice thing for him to do! He hung around and talked for about an hour or so, then left. We drove up to the grocery store and bought a few groceries. What a Great feeling it was to buy some food! We came straight home and ate!
God comes through in so many different ways! This was truly a Blessing once again! My husband will be starting his new job sometime soon. They hired him, but told him that they would call him in the next couple of days to come in, we are just so Thankful for this Job!
It was nice to have a Visit from a friend! We do not get those anymore! Most have forgotten us or abandoned us now! Every once in awhile, we get a visit from an Angel desguised as a friend or someone who has helped us! We always have God though, and a couple of friends left to believe in! I also have a few relatives left that do love and care about us, but just are not able to help us at this time. The rest, too, have abandoned us, but that is Ok. We will make it through, because we always have atleast One Visitor!
I hate when I can't sleep! This is happening more often lately! I stay awake, my eyes open, because when I close my eyes, the race begins!
Thoughts of Everything pouring in, like a Faucet turning on! I think of Everything that we lost, and then try to convince myself at the same time that I need to stop thinking of those things! They are Gone Forever! We cannot get them back by thinking about them, but I want to hold on to those thoughts sometimes! It is so hard to let it go! The sick feeling just wants to linger as I try so hard to ignore it. A constant Battle rages back and forth as I fight with my thoughts!
I just want peace of mind again! I don't want this Reality anymore but I know that this is Real and We have to face it everyday! Another day has passed. Broke! Hungry! We need so many things! Clean Clothes! The Car problems! Bills! Catching up! Getting further behind! If we will Ever catch up and be able to start over! We are so far in the hole, How do we get back out again? My Health! My Husbands Health! My sons and Daughters Health! My Grandsons Health! Our Future! The What Ifs! The Regrets! The Mistakes! The, If I could do it overs!!!!! Racing! Racing! Racing in my head!
Just One More Time! Just One More Break! Just One More Chance to do it Right this time!
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