Trying to Keep My Head Above the Water!

Broke, No Clean Clothes and Hungry again! My husband is Doing his Second part of his test today at his new job, then will start this week hopefully! Until then, the Bills are piling up. I feel like I am Drowning Sometimes! It feels like the walls are closing in! We are getting Closer to things getting better, yet this Dark feeling of Gloom is tapping on my shoulders again! It is a Surreal feeling and it is not good, yet I fight it as best as I can. 

We will owe the Motel atleast 2 weeks and we have to keep gas in the car and the car running! It can be Very Overwhelming! We haven't had much help at all lately and so it has been really hard to keep our heads above water! 

I have been working Hard on My Internet Programs trying to earn some money, but it is slow! Hoping things will pick up soon! It is keeping my mind and My Stomach occupied some to just stay busy! I have this Blog, 2 Google+ Communities, facebook and my online programs to keep me occupied for now! 

We are So Very Thankful for everything that we have gotten help with and everyone who pitched in here and there! We would not be here still, if those who cared, did not come forward to help us and we are So Thankful that we do have a roof over our Heads and still a little bit of canned food left!

We just Pray for another small Miracle so that we can make it until My husband starts bringing in a regular Paycheck! God is Good All of the Time and he will Make a Way Somehow! He Always has! 

Knocked Down to Earth!

Eventually Everyone gets knocked down to earth sometimes. We are supposed to learn a Great lesson in that and not be Too proud and to Appreciate every little thing that we have and to Never take things for granted again! Especially each other!

Those who have NOT yet experienced what it is like to be "Knocked Down", do not know just how Fortunate we are! I know that sounds Crazy, but it is so True! We learn things that some will never acquire in life because they did not experience, or have the Opportunity to experience what it is like to hit rock bottom.

When life knocks us down, our Sight Changes. Our train of thought changes. Our Appreciation of even the little things Change. Our Eyes are Truly Opened! Some will go through their entire lives without these Gifts and it is a shame, really. Don't get me wrong!  I do not wish any bad on anyone, but some will Always be blind to these things. They will Never Truly appreciate what they do have and will always take things for granted. 

Something as Meaningless as an Oven, or a Bed or Dishes and Pots and Pans. A toaster, can opener, coffee pot, Your own bedroom, Privacy, refrigerator, microwave. A garden, neighborhood, garage, driveway. Safety, Security, Warmth, Blankets, Coats, Clothing, Shampoo, toothepaste, deoderant, personal needs, Hot Meals, Home cooked Meals. I can go on and on and on! These and many more things in life, So Many of us take for granted! 

Friends and Family are another thing that we take for granted. But that is another learning Process in itself! When you Hit rock bottom, you definately will find out who Truly Cares for you And you will DEFINATELY Lose alot of "Friends and Relatives" along the way! When you get back on your feet again, I am sure, many of them will try to come back! (After the Storm has Cleared!) but that is Human Nature Sometimes. 

The Moral of this Story? Take in Everything that you Learn from this Experience of being at the bottom! Use it in the Most Positive Way that you can! I am trying to! I still get down at times, of course. We all do and will, but what is the most Important thing to remember out of all of this is: GET RIGHT BACK UP AGAIN!! It won't happen overnight, and some do expect it to, but as long as you are Moving Forward, You are Going the Right Way!

Back Again!

It has been about 10 days since I have been able to update my blog. We have been riding the Emotional Roller Coaster, as usual, but things are looking up! 

My husband got a job at a local Pizza place and he will start this week sometime. We will have the details, hopefully tomorrow! We will be about 2 to 3 weeks behind on the motel stay, but they agreed that we can stay until he gets paid, because they know that we are good, honest people and we will pay them. It is going to be really rough until he gets paid. I don't think some people realize what it takes to survive, even little things, like paper plates, cups, everyday household needs. grooming and personal needs, not to mention gas for the car and food to get by! 

We are truly Blessed to be able to stay here now and not have to worry about being out in our car, in the cold. We also had a good Samaritan that lives in my town, from my Facebook friends, bring us some canned foods and some other things from the grocery. That too was a Blessing! The food won't last long, with 3 adults, but it sure is a Huge Help and we are Very Thankful! :)

I still miss Hot, Home cooked meals really bad, but canned food is so much better then no food and Many people who are homeless don't get even that! It is Sad that their is so many who are going Hungry right now as I am writing this, and yet so little care to do anything! 

I do have a Wish List even though nobody will probably care! I would Love to get a toaster, a crock pot, an electric hot plate or something like that. A skillet or Pan to cook in and some microwaveable dishes and cookware. I could atleast make some microwaveavable Hot meals if I had something to work with! Of course we would need cooking oil and other foods too! Gas is always an issue and car repairs are too. It will take awhile to catch up with our bills and repair our car and to actually have spending money to buy these items that I want, but atleast it is a Step in the right direction and we will get there eventually! 

A Gift from God!

It is a Wonderful Blessing when others Pray for you! When they Truly, from the Heart, are praying for you! God hears all Prayers! I know that! He also sees our Hearts and knows what is inside of each and every one of us! Sometimes God puts it upon us to Pray for others who are troubled, but sometimes he wants us to be his vessel and Reach out to those who need it! 

I have been guilty of ignoring what God wants me to do, many times. I have not been in a position to help out others Financially for awhile now and I want to so badly. There has been many that we have come across who Acted on what God wanted them to do and I see that and I admire that! I too want to act on what God wants me to do. I created a Homeless America Community on Google+ because our experience has taught me to see another side of life that I too ignored before. I have a Passion now, to help others who are Homeless, even if I cannot help financially at this time, I want to give something, not just take! 

God Willing, If we Survive this Ordeal and get to a place where we can help others financially, I will be doing that! God knows that I am sincere about this! My eyes are opened so much more then they were before and it is a Gift from God. No Labels can do this to ones Heart! No matter how much you call yourself a "Christian" or "Humanitarian" or whatever label that you want to use, If you do not have it in your Heart, then Labels mean Nothing! Preaching and Advising and Helpful Tips mean NOTHING!

You Must Want to Help Others because it is in your Heart to do so and because God put it there! I cannot do much right now, but I am doing what I can, when I can, and My Heart is in the Right Place. I am not Perfect and I have my Flaws, but I do Care about others Very Much and I Thank God that I have Compassion and Love for others! What a lonely World it would be to have such a Cold Heart with no Love or Compassion! 

Desperately Looking for a Job!

During these last few months, My husband has been hitting the Job Market hard, but so far, No Calls! He has applied at local Fast Food jobs, Carpet Cleaning, Janitorial, Factories, Department Stores, but to No Avail so far! Not sure if it is just "The Economy", or the fact that he is 52 yrs of age or what.

My husband is with a Temporary Employment Agency and has been checking with them Lately, and they may have something for him! We are Praying that they contact my husband within the next couple of days.

I have been venturing into some Online Work at Home Programs and hoping that something comes through there also. As I mentioned before in my Blog, I have some health issues that need to be addressed, and hoping to get those resolved soon, so that maybe I can get back to work too. Until then, I am unable to work outside of a "work at my own pace" type of job.

Tomorrow, once again, is our last day at the motel. We are out of Money. No gas in the car and no way to move our things out of the motel room so it is looking pretty Gloomy right now! It is getting colder outside at Night, so sleeping in our car will be a challenge, If we are even able to get the car somewhere that we can park it at and stay. 

Please send Prayers! We can Really use them! 

I am Praying for You!

In the Midst of Everything that has happened to us, My husband losing his job, us losing our home, my Car, Most of our belongings, becoming Homeless, going without food and gas at times, I have heard so many others and seen so many others now, who are so much worse off then we are! I am Praying for You! 
We have also been Blessed by so many who have come out of the woodwork and Prayed for us, gave us money, paid our motel stay, helped with food and gas! I am praying for you! 
We have been Abandoned by many. Hated and Judged by many! Disrespected and Ignored by Many! I am Praying for you! 
Every Day, a new Tragedy! Someone dies or someone loses a Loved one! I am Praying for you! God Bless Everyone!

I'M Back!

I am Finally Able to Update my Blog again! I have been without a Laptop and have just been using my daughters tablet and it would not let me access my Blog, but thanks to a friend loaning me this laptop and good ole Google Chrome saving my Bookmarks, I am able to get back to it. 

Not much has happened since my last post. other then the motel did work with us and allow us to stay an extra week until we received our sons SSI so that we can pay them up until the 1st and then an extra week, so we are good here until Friday the 9th of October.

We were also Finally approved for Medical Insurance, which is a God Send Truly, and still waiting to hear about the Food Stamps. Hoping they will come in soon! We really could use them right now! 

We have been up and down, some days good, and other days, like today, not so good. Running out of food is no fun, but this is part of life for "The Needy and Homeless!" 

Some people do not Comprehend what it is like to be out of food, or live day by day, not knowing where we will be after Friday. The clock is Always ticking Down, but it is a Feeling that I do not Wish on Anyone! 

My husband has still been actively searching for work. with no luck so far. I am hoping to get back to work also, but need to get my health situation under control first. Our Car problems are just too Expensive for us to fix right now, but hoping the car will last long enough for my husband to get a job and get his first paycheck, so we can afford to get a new radiator and coil packs for the car. One good thing is that we do have someone to put them in once we get the parts. It is just a matter of timing. Hoping that time will be on our side!